Kill Yourself Already

Pain

Searing pain

Inside my heart, head wrecked with guilt

Doubting my will to continue existing

I feel the wrath of hell and hate

Completely alone, minus someone I thought loved me

This is a fate worse than death

Torn from my maker

Full of hatred toward myself

Thinking thoughts that words cannot say

Will not say anymore

Without a Trace

Teach me how to disappear completely,

How to vanish without a trace in the night

To fly to a higher holier place,

And reach that sanctified light

Teach me how to stop living

Without leaving a trace of a tear

Nobody devastated in my wake,

And nothing left to fear

How to leave this life behind

Quietly fade into icy indifference

A chill in the air, only lingering for the moment

Slipping smoothly from the grasps of existence

Teach me how to disappear completely

How to vanish without a trace in the night

Teach me how to disappear completely

How to decay into absolute silence

Disappear.

Completely.

Song for a Clam (Music Therapy Class)

I wish I was a killer whale,

But I’m only a clam,

I wish I was a killer whale,

But I’m only a clam

I can try and try

But I am what I am

I wish I were swimming high

But I’m at the bottom of the sea

I wish I were swimming high

But I’m at the bottom of the sea

I can dream and dream but

I will always be me.

I Am

I am not who I was

I am a broken minds with a healed soul

I am not just what you think

I am not just my memories

I am stumbling on concrete

I am tears in the night,

I am the most genuine smile

I am words that will remain unspoken,

Written only for my eyes to see,

And my mind to know

I am not perfect, but

I am enough

I am what I love.

I am